I happen to be a very gentle person and also quiet, but life had another plan for me entirely. I have seen stubborn people, and for once I don't see myself in their shoes. Even when I was in school and got bullied as a child in school, I still didn't do anything. I just want peace, and everything should end for good.
But as time goes on, I realized to survive, you will have to have at least had stubbornness in your daily routines, not even in the country I met myself in. If you are not crazy enough, you will not be able to live in my country.
So if there's ever a time that stubbornness works for me, then it's the time I almost got tired of life. So it happens that after my NYSC national youth service corps. I didn't initially have a plan, but then my brother's wife got a job for me outside the country, and it's a good-paying job, as he said.
I tried making my international passport and so on, but to cut the long story short, it turns out to be a scam. I accept my faith, but I'm always the only one at home; depression keeps settling in my life back then. I do not have a single friend; it is just me alone from morning till night, and I did that for months. I tried everything I could, but neither works out for me.
And it's already been four good months since I have been sleeping and waking up in the house. I could remember I made a promise to myself that by the end of April that year I would leave that house and go to another state to start another life. My sister and her husband beg me a lot. I just told them no problem.
One very good day, I just woke up, took my bag, and left for another state entirely. This small decision I make changes everything in my life, although at first it wasn't easy at all. But that single decision has gotten me a good job, and I've met with a lot of people who I can't meet if I sit at home. Yeah, this is the very first time I will be stubborn, and it turns out that way.
On the other hand, there's this day I was stubborn, which made everything worse; I was at work and doing what I needed to do. My superior sent me on an assignment, which I did for months on a very good day. Something happened between us, but instead of me just accepting my faith even though I knew I was right. I escalated the matter just because I knew I was right. In the long run, something that was supposed to be just two people.
Everyone got to know about the fight, and instead of me making peace and letting it go, I refused and stood on my right. Yes, I was right, but I was stubborn about it, and it turns out to be a blame on me. Which at the end of everything I regret acting that way.
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