I am not a good nap guy. Though, I have read about it being something really effective for our body. Anyways, my mind does not respect something good. Innately awkward. Hehehe!
The thing is: I took a nap. And whenever, I get successful; it makes me sad.
Nap, literally, sinks my heart.
I just cannot explain those feelings. But I will try to burst it out. There is this gloominess, harshness, anxiety, and what not. I mean everything is just in negative connotation. The good thing? Well I can keep looking at random object without blinking, until my mind reminds me to "blink idiot."
No Nightmare.
And funny enough, there was no dream at all. Like for the most part, I am dead during this nap thing. We all are, because we do not really remember what was happening at that moment. So there is no nightmare to claim: I am the reason. There is no monster (Jin) waiting beside my bed, no tragic news and no sudden realisation that I have wasted my entire life. It is just a strange emotional heaviness that arrives uninvited, takes the best seat in my mind, and refuses to leave.
A successfully failed operation.
Ugliest part is: I cannot even blame the nap itself. It just performed its activity. I slept, my body restored good energy and I woke up. Technically, it was a successful mission. However, emotionally it killed me quite well.
Science calls it: Sleep Inertia.
Well I just did a quick GPT search. It suggested for a healthcare checkup, nothing very much, just the usual fuss out of nothing. But, hey! At least, I learnt a new term, "sleep inertia."
"It refers to the temporary period of reduced alertness and cognitive performance after waking from sleep. During this transition, you may experience grogginess, slower thinking, confusion, and difficulty concentrating." - ChatGPT
I better stick to the philosophical and so-called wisdomic part. Because this science thing is not fun to write. No offense to any science lover. Facts are boring to me. All this absurdity makes the life worth it.
I mean what good is a life with clarification?
Yes, I know, I am moving away from the actual topic. Actually, I have already yapped about many other things. So like an easily achieve able goal, what is the purposeful life. Be wild, let the tide take you away. And die! Just kidding, but death is an inevitable concept. At least, right now, science has not achieved the competency of making humans mortal. People say that animes are mere cartoons. But this dream thing is stolen from the infamous - One Piece.
Now back to the NAP.
I might have a reason behind this happening. Remember I said "maybe." So there is possibility of being wrong. Maybe it is: the escapism. All those things I just skip rather than coping or dealing results in this. The conscious self knows to avoid things. It is pro actually, just keep yourself busy, avoid the harshness of life, and peace. But it is the subconscious and unconscious nature. It remains hidden, but that nap triggers everything. All these three conscious come form an alliance, and boom. You are done.
In the end, am I going to do something about it. Of course not! I am too lazy to go into such deep thinking for myself. Motivation is good, but let me roam like a wind.
Right now, I am thinking of another nap. Hahaha!
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Peace 🕊
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