Anxiety long waged a war against me and I pride myself a warrior mostly. But now, I feel very weak and don't think I can brave myself out of this fight easily. It came as a huge shock to me when I found out some people don't get anxious (for no obvious reason). More than half the time, I actually don't know why I'm anxious and it drives me crazy. I get even more anxious knowing I am going through a phase of anxiety and this affects my daily life.
It hasn't been easy for me academically also as I've noticed anxiety shuts my brain from school work. The past few months have been a heck of a bumpy ride. I've struggled to keep up with deadlines and to make good grades. I have cried and panicked through assignments, worked under so much pressure from an anxious mind. Surprisingly, I've been able to improve on my grades and currently in a good position. However, I'm still an anxious mess getting to the finish line. I need my brain to get working asap as I'm running out of time and I acknowledge that I need help seriously.
I have never gotten any professional support for my mental health before as I couldn't afford them. I currently have free support services with my school and there's no better time than now to make use of them. I am booked in for an appointment and I hope it helps me in some way to regain focus and calm my racing heart.
