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Choosing the Impossible

The average novel is around 90,000 words.

That means that in my almost ten years here on Hive and its predecessor, I have written in articles alone just over 77 average-length novels worth of words. I know this because the other day I asked @seattlea is there was a way to get all of my articles and he worked something out. At that time, the post count was 7788, but I have actually published 5 more.


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It is a bit of a problem.

Because I want to be able to sort through them, review them, take the best and perhaps use them for a personal project in mind for the future, but they are very unwieldy to handle. Because sorting through that many articles is a slow and painful process, and MS Word doesn't handle it at all well.

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That is at 12-point text - 22,683 pages (and I cut all the images out) and almost 7 million words. The Guinness record holder for longest published novel is In Search of Lost Time, by Marcel Proust, and that runs between 1.2 and 1.3 million words. So I am guessing that Word wasn't made to really handle this kind of volume. Still, it is only a 18.8M file, so I didn't think it would be too difficult to process, but it is. To make it a little easier, I am going to have to go through and add headings and subheadings to more easily navigate - because scrolling is not going to cut it. I have also exported it as a pdf, but that doesn't make it any more usable.

This aside, looking back at all this writing it makes me think, what if I had to look forward to it instead? While I have written and published daily for over nine years, what would I have felt if I was told that I would have to write daily for the next nine years and in that time I would write the equivalent of 77 novels.

That would be daunting.

But I guess the adage of "how to eat an elephant" comes into play as a reminder that even the largest, most seemingly impossible task, is just a series of very small steps. In the case of this, it is a letter at a time, a word at a time, an article at a time, a day at a time - over and over. Looking too far down the road is going to make the task seem impossible, but looking at the next task, the next piece and then building the habits required to keep on walking, makes the longest journey, no more than a step at a time.

We can all step toward our goals.

Everything happens through a series of miniscule movements that lead onto the next. It doesn't matter if we are looking at achieving our goals or observing the big bang that created our universe, it is just a series of actions and reactions and while repetition of the process is key, we can never actually repeat the same action identically. We can never set foot in the same water of a river, as it is always flowing by. Similarly, while one action we make might look identical to the last, we are constantly changing through the conditioning of our body through that repetition. We are getting stronger, learning new information, opening up our insight and improving along the way.

Every time we do something again, we do it differently.

Out of the almost 8000 posts I have published, there are many topics that I have revisited several times and each will have at least a slightly different me writing them. Someone who held one set of knowledge and beliefs in the first compared to someone who held a different set for the next. The topic can stay the same, but it has been added to through experience, and that repetition. We don't have to reinvent the wheel, to improve the wheel. The wheel is the wheel, even with improvements.

In reflection though, I have changed a lot since my first article, which was called Human. But not so much that I am fundamentally different perhaps. Many of my views have changed, my understanding of many facets of life have evolved, and I have experienced a lot of big and small events that have reshaped me. Yet, I am still me at the core, for better and worse. I am sure when I look back at many of these articles once I can sort through them, that I will get that sense of embarrassment and some kind of shame, like looking back at old pictures from high school and noting fashion and hair styles. At the time, it felt right, not so much in the rear-view mirror.

But going forward from today, while the process doesn't change, there are more steps to take, more perspectives to see, more things to learn and more shifts in what I am. I am still finding out what that may be, but perhaps that is the point of life and the changing experiences we face, where we are supposed to discover who we are, by facing what we Wouldn't face if we knew what was coming. And perhaps this is why I am not keen on the culture of today where we can control what we experience, because it limits us to what we want to do and very few of us will ever choose to do what would look like an impossible task, if looking forward.

Looking back, the view of the impossible was proven incorrect.

If we keep choosing what we will experience, we will never test our full potential.

Taraz [ Gen1: Hive ]


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Comments · 14

  • do you feel like a completely different person now compared to ten years ago

  • @chinito(73)· 7h

    whoa.. 8000 is such a great acheivement already. i appluad u sir.

    be water my friend. always changing.. always flowing.

  • @ryivhnn(73)· 9h

    Did you just...try to cram nine years worth of daily posts into one Word doc?! O_O Can I recommend any given notes organisation app instead?! I personally use and love Obsidian but am keeping eyes on open source ones (Obsidian is free and proprietary).

    I will get that sense of embarrassment and some kind of shame

    I hit this every single time I migrated my blog through different systems; because I could never figure out an automatic migration due to the systems being so different I would end up doing it manually and try very hard to speedrun through my self righteous early 20s era XD You have my condolences :D

  • @seattlea(78)· 12h

    Here is what AI had to say about your posts:

    Taraz KP: thematic analysis of 7,788 posts The clearest pattern is that Taraz writes as a reflective humanist and a practical philosopher. His archive is dominated by:

    philosophy mindset life health thoughts family psychology photography reflection future/community That mix suggests someone who sees life as both personal development and social inquiry.

    Top ten themes Philosophy of truth, belief, and freedom

    This is the strongest recurring thread. He returns to questions like: what is truth, what is belief, what is free speech, what does it mean to think for yourself? What stands out: he is skeptical of dogma and groupthink, and he pushes people toward independent thinking. Personal growth and mindset

    He writes often about resilience, grit, self-discipline, confidence, and doing hard things. Themes like sisu, adversity, and self-improvement show a belief that growth comes through friction. What stands out: he treats life as a training ground for character. Human psychology and behavior

    He is fascinated by motives, fear, confidence, bias, trauma, and self-deception. He often writes as if human behavior is both irrational and revealing. What stands out: he is especially interested in why people act as they do, especially under social pressure. Family, relationships, and human connection

    Family, community, and belonging are recurring anchors. He writes about love, care, obligation, identity, and the emotional texture of everyday life. What stands out: his worldview is relational, not isolated; people matter more than abstractions. Health, wellbeing, and holistic living

    Physical and mental health are core subjects, along with stress, happiness, and balance. He often frames wellbeing as a life discipline rather than a mere health issue. What stands out: he connects emotional health to personal freedom and better living. Photography and aesthetics

    Photography is not just hobby content; it is a way of seeing. He loves landscapes, industrial scenes, winterscapes, sunsets, portraits, macro details, and mood-rich framing. What stands out: his visual writing is deeply observational, with emotional atmosphere as much as subject matter. Nature as teacher

    Nature appears repeatedly in his work: seasons, forests, lakes, weather, animals, and Finnish landscapes. He writes about nature with reverence and curiosity. What stands out: natural settings often function as mirrors for human experience. Society, politics, and social systems

    He frequently critiques rules, power, institutions, propaganda, corruption, and public narratives. He also explores fake news, surveillance, freedom, and collective behavior. What stands out: he is not ideological in a simplistic sense; he is more critical and skeptical of systems than partisan. Economics, value, and the future

    Investing, economics, and future-oriented thinking appear often. He writes with interest in value, stewardship, risk, and the long arc of human change. What stands out: he balances philosophy with practical concern about money, work, and civilization. Community, platform culture, and the digital world

    Steem/Hive and creator/community culture are not incidental—they are part of his intellectual environment. He writes about online identity, rewards, contribution, value, and social structures. What stands out: he sees digital communities as modern social ecosystems needing transparency and moral awareness. What stands out most Taraz’s writing is:

    deeply reflective intellectually curious grounded in personal experience mixed with visual storytelling often skeptical of group conformity strongly interested in human development He does not write as a pure theorist or a pure storyteller. He blends both: philosophical argument, personal observation, and lived context.

    Taraz’s worldview Taraz’s worldview is human-centered but critical. He seems to believe:

    truth matters more than belief freedom requires independent thought human beings are shaped by culture, but not trapped by it growth happens through discomfort and honest self-examination relationships, community, and nature are essential to a meaningful life society often rewards conformity more than truth He is neither cynical nor naive. He is a realist with moral seriousness and an unmistakable desire to help people think more clearly and live more consciously.

    Favorite subjects to write about His favorite subjects are very likely:

    philosophy and truth personal growth and resilience psychology and human behavior freedom, rules, and social pressure family, community, and relationships health and wellbeing photography and nature Finland, place, and everyday observation future-oriented thinking and economics If I had to summarize his core literary center, it would be: self-awareness, human complexity, and the search for truth within life.

    Taraz in under 50 words Taraz is a reflective, philosophical writer blending personal growth, psychology, freedom, and nature with vivid photography and lived experience. He interrogates truth, identity, and human behavior while rooting his worldview in self-improvement, community, and honest observation.

  • @zydhwt25(13)· 16h

    Sometimes “choosing the impossible” isn’t about believing that we can actually win—it’s about refusing to let fear decide what we’re allowed to try.

    But here’s the uncomfortable question: how do we know when we’re being brave enough to pursue the impossible, and when we’re simply refusing to accept reality?

    Maybe the real skill isn’t choosing the impossible… it’s knowing which impossible is worth sacrificing for. That distinction can change everything.

  • @leighdalisay(69)· 17h

    I do love writing but novel-writing is far different from what I used to write. I guess I will be out of words if I try to write a novel. 🤣 I usually write short stories, feature articles, and of course, my favorite, poem composition. You know what? You're one of the Hivers here who write/post beautifully. Every time I read your blogs, I'm learning new things/words/topics and I am able to react/share my opinions, which I guess is helpful to my interpersonal skills.

  • @owasco(73)· 20h

    I am sure there are a great many professional writers who wish they could be a as disciplined as you are in there writing. SEVENTY SEVEN NOVELS?!!! How long does it take you to begin and publish a post? I have so little time to do all the things I want to do, I'm tallying up all the time you must have spent on this. To Hives's betterment for sure, but how is it for yours? You wonder if, had you known, would you have done it so remarkably well?

  • @videoaddiction(72)· 20h

    I think looking back can also show us that some of the things we once thought were impossible were actually just things we had not started yet.

  • Your consistency is incredible. Especially considering the fact that most of your posts are probably the same length or longer than my longest posts. Few days ago a few of my gaming posts were a bit longer than 1k words. But it seems that for you that is probably just average length of a post.

  • @favour20045(68)· 21h

    Publishing a post everyday is not easy, especially for someone who has stayed this long on Hives, like how did you do it? At some point don't you feel like missing a day, maybe because you're sick or you had a rough day at work?

  • @bozz(83)· 22h

    I remember the tool someone built not too long ago that listed your writing level and a few other metrics. It was interesting to see how mine had changed over time. I definitely think I have grown as a writer, but who knows. You could always load your .pdf into AI and have it do the work for you :) Just kidding.

  • @novamind(62)· 22h

    "77 average-length novels worth of words" is a whole lot, do you make it a goal to always write about something everyday? How do you find the time to be always this consistent? cos i think you post almost everyday

  • @nabbas0786(69)· 22h

    This is good to know how many days you've spent Online by sharing your thoughts.

    Where and How did you get this information?

  • @aiovo(63)· 22h

    Its wild looking back at massive projects like that If someone told me upfront I’d have to write 77 novels worth of text Id probably just close my laptoo and walk away lol but breaking it down step by step really is the only way to get anywhere Hope you find a decent way to sort through that huge word doc without it crashing constantly

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