I don't know why Selena Gomez sang "People You Know," but each time I listen to it, I remember the people who were once my friends, who loved me and whom I loved, before we fell apart.
Friendship heartbreak hurts the most. I read somewhere that enemies are just friends we once liked. I didn't like how that sounded and I defended against it in my mind, but it is so true.
I have lost more friends than I have made, and sometimes I genuinely wonder if they are okay. Some left because of distance. Others left because of quarrels we couldn't resolve, since we had different views and never got to sort things out. Two of my friendships fell apart because of the opposite gender, and one of them hurts me the most because, knowing what I know now, I don't think it was worth losing the friendship.
Most times when I lose certain friends, I wonder whether the love we had for each other wasn't real. I have heard that people grow out of each other and that people leave, and most people say that is okay, so I am trying to live with that.
But there is one thing I will never forget, even though our story ended in hurt: the love.
I have always had the best friendships, and I tell myself I hit the jackpot because I needed to experience love that didn't come from family.
The days we showed up for each other. The days we smiled and rushed into hugs, doing happy dances. The days we hung out at different spots, pushing each other to try something new. The days you helped me change and made sure I slept somewhere comfortable because I had dozed off right after school, exhausted. The days you fed me because you knew how much I hate eating.
I carry each memory we shared with so much delight, and I am glad we got to experience each other.
I still wonder what our friendship would have been like if we had kept each other, and I don't believe it was okay that we grew apart. Thank you for the love you planted in my heart. I hope you have good memories of me too, and I hope this world is as kind to you as you were to me, often and without reason.
Rating: 98/100
Originally posted through scrobble.life/music.
