Everyone has a internal critic and yes, I do have an internal critic as well. It is always nagging at the back of my head. Sometimes it takes a break. Then all of a sudden it decides to appear when I am doing something important, hehe. Sometimes I wish it would just take a day off.
Its favorite saying is most likely something along the lines of, "What if you are not giving your best?" It asks me that question way too often whenever I try to do something so if I make a mistake it feels like it is attacking me. It makes me think of all the bad things that could happen. Like everything could be going right but it seems to find some way to ruin it. It feels like I am my own enemy and I don't need someone else to ruin my peace for me.
My internal critic talks the most when I have to make an important decision. It also talks more when I am being judgmental of other people. Social media manipluates me sometimes when I see what others are doing and then start to wonder if I am falling behind. I know that others only put out a certain image but my mind fails to remember that, hehe.
It pops up most when I have to make a speech or say something in front of someone. Before I say something important I think of all the reactions people might have. I become afraid that I will sound weird or that I will say the wrong thing or stupid and end up offending someone. But to be honest no one really cares what I say, lol. My mind just likes to overthink about the conclusions.
If my internal critic was a person I would imagine him to be a serious individual. He would be wearing black clothings. He would have no soul if you look through his eyes and he would never smile. I would imagine that he would find mistake in everything I did or will do or even if I made none. I hear him asking me again, "Shouldn't you think twice?"
His personality would most likely be cautious like caring too much about what I did. Maybe I would call him a mean person. I believe that he would actually try to protect me from embarrassment but problem is that he over does everything and he pressurizes a lot. He thinks that by being so cautious all the time that it will help.
I know I shouldn't believe everything that my internal critic says. I think thoroughly and then I listen to its advice. Other times I ignore it but trust me it's not easy to ignore. I understand that I will make mistakes and that's how it is supposed to be. I can have bad days and there's nothing wrong in it. That does not mean that I am failing in life. It just means that I am a human being, hehe.
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