Let's not get distracted

Admittedly, 2 of my recent posts were made when I didn't get proper sleep. Since last week, I have been working non-stop from 10 PM to 5 AM. It takes a toll on your body and mind especially when you don't really track your time. Just as I was discussing earlier, these days I am trying to "hack" time with the 168 hour method. It's starting this week because I wanted to have a more balanced lifestyle with the way I am running the day. I typically can not work in small increments, I love to work in long hours and then stop working and have long rest. I am just not build for consistency and no matter how hard I tried, I do not want to make things complicated in my life. So this is why, I decided to just do a little strange ways of managing time.

The thing is, I have been tired and frustrated with my life was genuinely low on motivation. I can not see what lies ahead of me. But today, I find more strength to go on after I went out to Church and socialized again with my family. I don't particularly like to complain with the state of living I am in but sometimes it spilled over when every shit happened to me non-stop.

My mom have advised me that I need to learn how to prioritize due to our economy situation. I have been having some gigs with Indonesian but due to their typical ways of treating other human being, it is not worth the time. So, I need to reorganize again. But I also learn, the best way these days is to avoid all social media including X all together. I am not on instagram already but I still have the habit checking up on X where everything is doom and gloom. When I go over Linkedin, I feel like I am the dumbest people alive but also there is still hope as people are less doom and gloom. Afterall, if the world is over and people no longer have money, these corporation will die out.

Corporation needs consumer and as long as that is how it works, they will try to shape it that way. That gives me a little rationale that the world will still run despite war. Some just born without a dose of care in the world. The world is more than what we have consumed on the news anyway and as someone who sees both ways, honestly whatever happens on X shouldn't be something that scares us.

Or maybe the world will be full blown dystopian and we all fight for resources provided by corporations, who knows. At the end of the day, it was a great reminder to me to focus and work with all my might, just get that degree, make money and forget the rest.

Just for now. Let's not get distracted 😂