A few months ago, I wrote about how much I loved Thunderbolts* after seeing it on opening night in the theaters. I then saw it again two days later. Yesterday, I watched for a third time. I'll most likely watch it again at some point this month. I seem to love it even more every time I watch it. In that post, I also said I would wait before I wrote about the underlying meaning of the move. Well it has been 4 months and it is available on streaming now so if you haven't seen it yet, go watch right now and then come back.

Thunderbolts* is fun, exciting, action-packed and hilarious Marvel movie. It is also one of the best allegories for mental health that I have ever seen. That is why I will keep coming back to it. The United States is going through a mental health crisis right now. It is especially bad for teenagers... who happen to be the group that I teach. I see kids suffering every day. I do my best to support them but I only see them for 48 minutes a day while I am teaching 20 something other students. These kids 9and many adults) need to seek treatment for their mental health they way we have been accustomed to seek treatment for our physical health. But sadly, there is still a stigma surrounding mental health and effective treatment. Too many people suffer in silence. That is why movies like Thunderbolts* are so important right now. This movie not only shows that strong people (even some who are super human) have mental health needs, but that there is hope. Kids need to see those two things. They are not weird, stupid or broken for needing help with their mental health, just like they are not weird, stupid or broken if they need help treating a broken bone. And just like their are casts for broken bones, there are things one can do to treat their mental health issues.
The movie is chock full of scenes and quotes that scream "It's OK not to be OK... but it is not OK to suffer in silence." In fact the opening scene (in between cracking jokes and kicking ass) shows Yelena, portrayed by Florence Pugh, talking about how lost she feels. She then seeks out her father for support. It goes incredibly poorly but she does not give up.
Later, Yelena delivers a monologue that hit home with many people who suffer from depression and anxiety. She tells her father "Daddy, I'm so alone. I don't have anything anymore. All I do is sit, and look at my phone, and think of all the terrible things that I've done, and then I go to work, and then I drink, come home to no-one, and I sit and think about all the terrible things I've done again and again and I go crazy!" We have all made mistakes in our lives. Sadly many of us relive those things far more often than reliving the good things we have done. That takes a toll and it takes time and effort to stop. But it can be done. Bucky echoes this sentiment when he says, "Look, I've been where you are. The past doesn't go away. So you can either live with it for ever, or do something about it.".
Perhaps the best example of mental health issues in Thunderbolts* is that the real villain is the darkness who lives in side of Bob... or inside of all of us. Many of us have a tiny little voice in us that tells us we are not good enough or that we will fail. Some people have learned to challenge and silence that voice. Unfortunately, some have a voice that is gigantic and too monstrous to silence on their own. But as Yelena says, "We can't stop him alone. No one can. But we can find a way together." And this is what people suffering from metal illness need to hear. They need to hear that darkness can be defeated, but they need help to do so. They need to surround themselves with people who are good for their mental health rather than toxic people.

The movie is so full of mental health allegories that I could probably write for days. I mean the entire villain is an allegory for bipolar disorder. Every character has suffered from PTSD. They are all trying to mask the pain of their pasts. And they are all in a different phase of healing. Some have just started and others are making it through one day at a time. But they keep pushing. This is never more obvious than in the final act in Bob's "House of bad memories". There is an old saying that goes, "When you are going through Hell... keep going." It means that when your life is the hardest, you don't give up. You keep going to push through and get out of that Hell. And that is literally what the characters do in that house. I was simply blown away.
I love sci-fi, comic book and adventure movies. Every once in a while there is a scene that transcends the popcorn eating joy I feel while watching. When Captain Kirk's dad saves the ship while he hears his newborn son James Tiberius Kirk being born is one of them. My favorite is when Han Solo walks out onto the ledge, without his blaster, in an attempt to to save his son Ben. Both of those show heroes being vulnerable. They aren't saving the day with strength and weapons. They are using their hearts. One of the final scenes of Thunderbolts* has now been added to that list. Yelena asks her dad to make a final push to set her free. She leaps, spins, and flips to avoid a ton of deadly obstacles so she can reach the villain and... hug him. Was it cheesy? Yep. But it was also beautiful. And I would imagine that many people who have been supported through their trials with mental health issues would agree.
I freaking love this movie!



























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@ryivhnn, @screenjournal, @bhattg and everyone have been warning me about this. But I had to see this by myself to believe. And they weren't lying. Season 3 is worse than season 2. I think the writers forgot that they were working on a horror genre. At this point, I am more afraid of the writers than the nightmonsters.
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So, I powered up 101 Hive today. And touched 3.5K HP, looking forward to reaching and fulfilling my 5K by the year-end. Thanks for your time.



Episode 4 of Alien Earth was a bit different from what we have been getting so far, its titled "Observation" and that pretty much sums up what this episode was all about, everyone watching everyone else and trying to figure out who is playing what game, it turn out way better than any other episode so far and I hope the series just keeps climbing. Episode 4 is not action packed as previous episodes, this one slowed things down quite a bit, focusing more on the psychological stuff and character relationships rather than Xenomorphs running around killing people, there were moments where I was waiting for something big to happen but this episode was more about setting up pieces on the chess board for what I think will be some major problems later on, specially with the Lost Boys who are starting to go off rails and breaking direction or indirectly most of the rules, specially no external contact but lets face it Wendy started this party when she contact her brother, now she is different, she is special and thats started to create friction long time ago although she doesnt seem to be affected by this.
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The whole subplot with the five corporations was probably my favorite part of the episode because it finally gives us some context about how this world actually works, turns out governments dont exist anymore and these five massive companies basically run everything now. Prodigy, Wyland Yutani, Threshold, Dynamic and Lynch have apparently fixed all the worlds problems by taking over, which sounds like corporate propaganda but its cool to see how they are expanding the Alien universe with this kind of world building. Joe explains how democracy used to be a thing where people voted for leaders but that didnt work out so these corporations stepped in, the way they present it makes it sound like a good thing but you know theres gotta be a dark side to all this control. They also made very clear that prodigy and Lynch were the new kids on the block, joining what used to be a thing of three main companies now to make it five, which suggests there might be some tension between the older and newer companies that could play out later in the series exploding into this war between humans and who knows where does all this Aliens, because its not Xenomorphs anymore, where do they all fit into this hole situation, I bet Boy Cavaliere will try to use them in their favor and until now the franchise have set the idea that Drones only caught humans to reproduce themself but what about their motives and thoughts? are they that agresive by nature or fear? can they actually come to a middle ground? Wendy is key to all this.
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The situation with Morrow and Slightly really ramped up in this episode and its getting pretty dark, Morrow is basically grooming this kid and using his family as leverage which is just sick and you already now poor Joe is going to turn out to be the sacrifice to end this situation, well potentially, there are not many humans among them. After Slightly gives away his real name and tells Morrow hes from Ghana, Morrow immediately starts threatening his mother and brother back home, now Slightly has no choice but to help him steal one of the eggs or his family gets hurt. The whole thing is handled really well because it shows how someone with bad intentions can manipulate children, even super intelligent hybrid kids who should know better, Slightly is scared and desperate and making terrible decisions because hes trying to protect the people he loves. What makes it even worse is that Kirsh knows exactly whats happening, hes been monitoring everything Slightly sees and hears but instead of stopping it hes just watching like its some kind of experiment, and its also stupid from Morrow not imagening this could happen, he is a cyborg himself and nows this kids are a new kind of synthetic, its the kind of details the series just miss sometimes but I guess its fine. The scene where Kirsh talks to Slightly about the three monkeys and asks if he would stop someone from doing something wrong was chilling because you realize Kirsh might be testing him or maybe even planning to use this situation for his own purposes.
The episode ends with probably the most disturbing scene so far, Wendy going down to visit Joes lung in the tank where the xenomorph embryo has grown into a chest burster and somehow she can communicate with it and even calm it down enough to pet it. This whole sequence was nightmare fuel but also fascinating because it suggests Wendy might be able to control these creatures, I have been thinking this hole time since episode two that she can become their Queen of Blades doing a reference to Star Craft, which could be game changing for the series moving forward. The chest burster breaking through the lung tissue was gross but also showed us exactly what happens inside someones chest when they get face hugged, which was educational in the most horrifying way possible. Xenomorphs seem to have chosen Wendy specifically as their communication link, theres gotta be a reason why shes the only one who can do this and I have a feeling the explanation is going to be wild. The way she hums to the creature like a lullaby before it emerges was both beautiful and terrifying, showing this weird motherly connection that definitely sets up some interesting possibilities for future episodes. Overall this episode felt like a setup piece rather than a payoff episode but it did a good job of moving characters into position for what I expect will be some major chaos coming soon, the psychological elements and world building kept me engaged even when the action slowed down.


































